Sunday, September 6, 2009
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
bad start to A levels...
today was my A level mother tongue
and i screwed up
screwed......
my reading sucks
lots of mistakes here and there
then the conversation part is a totally lost cause
i'm sure that if i recorded what i said to the examiners
i'll laugh at my own video of me
that so wasnt malay language
then as i was just about to feel a bit secure for my project work...
my group leader suddenly told us that our completed pw stuff is rejected!
hell!
all that hard work.....
now i must we must either modify the project
or worse, come up with something that is so totally new!
with a totally bad performance in mid years
this year promises to be another lousy year in my miserable life..
sucks laa
how i wish this year was like last year....
haiyaaaaaa
and i screwed up
screwed......
my reading sucks
lots of mistakes here and there
then the conversation part is a totally lost cause
i'm sure that if i recorded what i said to the examiners
i'll laugh at my own video of me
that so wasnt malay language
then as i was just about to feel a bit secure for my project work...
my group leader suddenly told us that our completed pw stuff is rejected!
hell!
all that hard work.....
now i must we must either modify the project
or worse, come up with something that is so totally new!
with a totally bad performance in mid years
this year promises to be another lousy year in my miserable life..
sucks laa
how i wish this year was like last year....
haiyaaaaaa
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
cause it's a thriller night!
with this talk and fuss and news about michael jackson
his death and funeral
i think people are putting too much light and attention on it
i'm sure jackson would wanna have a peaceful death
a peaceful afterlife and maybe a peaceful life for his family
so i think there's just too much media attention
on this superstar's funeral and death
i also think that michael's funeral should be held at night
well that's because it'll be really cool
if he jumped back to life
did a moonwalk and say "oww!"
then dance and sing to the music of thriller!
with zombies surrounding the terrified guests
that would be damn cool
or ar least that's how i think
well he's a cool person
with the trademark dancemoves,
shiny glove and outfits
as well as nice songs
done many stuff which we may envy like
gotten rich, become a great star, had his own amusement park
cute kids, many fans around the world
and also some stuff that we may not be jealous of like
the child-rape thingys
and turning from black to white
oh well
he certainly left an impression in many hearts
his death and funeral
i think people are putting too much light and attention on it
i'm sure jackson would wanna have a peaceful death
a peaceful afterlife and maybe a peaceful life for his family
so i think there's just too much media attention
on this superstar's funeral and death
i also think that michael's funeral should be held at night
well that's because it'll be really cool
if he jumped back to life
did a moonwalk and say "oww!"
then dance and sing to the music of thriller!
with zombies surrounding the terrified guests
that would be damn cool
or ar least that's how i think
well he's a cool person
with the trademark dancemoves,
shiny glove and outfits
as well as nice songs
done many stuff which we may envy like
gotten rich, become a great star, had his own amusement park
cute kids, many fans around the world
and also some stuff that we may not be jealous of like
the child-rape thingys
and turning from black to white
oh well
he certainly left an impression in many hearts
Sunday, July 5, 2009
monkeys
i suddenly have this random thought:
"what would i say/do if i met cat again?"
i'm feeling a lot better now
after self-training yesterday evening and today morning
while i'm not feeling that weak or pathetic as i was a few days ago
from the training i can tell that my fitness is very low
i get this fear that my heart might just die while i'm running
it has happened many times in the news
super fit NSmen suddenly collapse while running marathons or anything similar
and dying on the spot because their hearts stopped
scared that it might happen to me
so i'm kinda taking things easy for now
although i'm kinda impatient and cant wait to get into shape
even though i dont really have anything to be ready for
for the trainings that i've had so far,
i did both of them inside a multi-storey carpark
i like training there
no traffic, no people, no hot sun, no smoke
and there's uphills and enough room to sprint
and it's me all alone
peaceful stressfree training
this tuesday is the day i'm taking my A level Mother Tongue Oral
and i havent been speaking that much Malay or even read Malay
which is trouble
because i'm most likely gonna screw up because i'll lose confidence in myself the moment i sit on the chair and stare at the invigilator in the eye
the oral will probably ask about some recent stuff like
youth olympics or the damn flu
i dun think i can remember or cough out some of the relevant points for these two topics
hmm.. gotta read malay newspapers
saw this commercial on tv for a show that is trying to prove that chimpanzees
are just as smart as humans
the chimpanzees are playing some sort intellectual game in which
they have to remember the position of numbers or something
and they always got it right
but if chimps are so smart, then why dont they make nuclear bombs
and solve the problem of human overpopulation
if they are so smart, then why are they still in cages?
"what would i say/do if i met cat again?"
i'm feeling a lot better now
after self-training yesterday evening and today morning
while i'm not feeling that weak or pathetic as i was a few days ago
from the training i can tell that my fitness is very low
i get this fear that my heart might just die while i'm running
it has happened many times in the news
super fit NSmen suddenly collapse while running marathons or anything similar
and dying on the spot because their hearts stopped
scared that it might happen to me
so i'm kinda taking things easy for now
although i'm kinda impatient and cant wait to get into shape
even though i dont really have anything to be ready for
for the trainings that i've had so far,
i did both of them inside a multi-storey carpark
i like training there
no traffic, no people, no hot sun, no smoke
and there's uphills and enough room to sprint
and it's me all alone
peaceful stressfree training
this tuesday is the day i'm taking my A level Mother Tongue Oral
and i havent been speaking that much Malay or even read Malay
which is trouble
because i'm most likely gonna screw up because i'll lose confidence in myself the moment i sit on the chair and stare at the invigilator in the eye
the oral will probably ask about some recent stuff like
youth olympics or the damn flu
i dun think i can remember or cough out some of the relevant points for these two topics
hmm.. gotta read malay newspapers
saw this commercial on tv for a show that is trying to prove that chimpanzees
are just as smart as humans
the chimpanzees are playing some sort intellectual game in which
they have to remember the position of numbers or something
and they always got it right
but if chimps are so smart, then why dont they make nuclear bombs
and solve the problem of human overpopulation
if they are so smart, then why are they still in cages?
Friday, July 3, 2009
the real proof
forgot to write about this
in last tuesday's (30 june) lit test
where we did paper 1 lit or arfah's lit,
our class kinda got a shock when mr pow walked into our class
we were doing our test
it was quiet as all tests usually are
he walked in with an air of confidence
as he made a gesture to ms shamala that he will be borrowing a marker from her plastic folder
then he stood at the right of the white board
and wrote mathematical equations on the white board
with the look on his face that says
"damn typo error.. now must explain to the kids the new changes"
already some of us started to giggle
fikri, who sat behind me laughed so loud i could hear him
from one corner of the class eleen was smiling so happily
mr pow turned to face the class and says
"now if you look at question A part one....."
which ms shamala approached him and stopped him
and spoke softly
(probably to save him from embarrassment that he will soon experience)
"..this is a literature test.."
to which he burst out laughing
the class laughed too
thank goodness ms shamala didnt disqualify any of us from the test
because i was so sure that everyone of us were laughing at him
ironically, the text that we did for paper 1 literature
was a play called "proof"
and funny thing is that
the play "proof" was actually a play about mathematics..
another reason why we think mr pow's mistake of coming into our class was so funny
in last tuesday's (30 june) lit test
where we did paper 1 lit or arfah's lit,
our class kinda got a shock when mr pow walked into our class
we were doing our test
it was quiet as all tests usually are
he walked in with an air of confidence
as he made a gesture to ms shamala that he will be borrowing a marker from her plastic folder
then he stood at the right of the white board
and wrote mathematical equations on the white board
with the look on his face that says
"damn typo error.. now must explain to the kids the new changes"
already some of us started to giggle
fikri, who sat behind me laughed so loud i could hear him
from one corner of the class eleen was smiling so happily
mr pow turned to face the class and says
"now if you look at question A part one....."
which ms shamala approached him and stopped him
and spoke softly
(probably to save him from embarrassment that he will soon experience)
"..this is a literature test.."
to which he burst out laughing
the class laughed too
thank goodness ms shamala didnt disqualify any of us from the test
because i was so sure that everyone of us were laughing at him
ironically, the text that we did for paper 1 literature
was a play called "proof"
and funny thing is that
the play "proof" was actually a play about mathematics..
another reason why we think mr pow's mistake of coming into our class was so funny
now i know why you love x japan
mob sucks.. had it in the late afternoon
they all said it was an easy paper.
well that's not what my answer script will say
furthermore i forgot to bring my calculator
so bye bye 3 marks
heck
goodbye section A
i might as well say goodbye year 3
or better yet
good bye MI
haha
maybe not..
i joked with huishi just now
after the paper
beginning with
"i might not see you again next year"
then as we were walking to the mrt,
i told hui shi and carina
that i'm going to singapore poly
huishi asked for what
then i said to "to apply for a course there"
she suddenly was shocked
and asks i'm leaving
and gave me a worried look
continuously asked me if this was a joke...
of course it was a joke laa
but it was no joke that i'm going to singapore poly
well only for one night
and it was one good night
a sure good way to end the day after going through a lousy paper
i went there to support mila and her band, 13 is a crowd
but that wasnt the only reason why i came
well mila convinced me to come
saying that they are not the only ones performing
there we be performances from different countries
13 will be representing singapore
then she told me that a band there will be performing songs from x japan
immediately i was super interested
so after the paper i rushed to SP
and i arrived late (half hour late) but still i managed to catch the first performance
it was a band called rusty figures
when they came in they were playing a x japan song called "weekend"
already i love their band
as well as x japan
the lead singer was a girl named ruby
she sang the song well
even had the japanese accent to her voice while singing
and she was hot too
she wore these i think black rubber tights
that shined in the spotlight
nasty! (in a good way)
as for x japan,
i was only introduced to this band from my friend in pae last year
his name is weirong and he's a damn big fan of x japan
he even told me of his ambitions to have the same funky hairstyle
i never really look deep into the band back then
but after the band "rusty figures" played two x japan songs
i knew i have to start doing so
cause i just love the style of music that x japan plays
weirong,
now i know why you love x japan so much
and to think i've only seen a cover of the song..
wow..
after the band was an indian girl who sang a familiar japanese song
well it was familiar since the song was used as the third ending song
for Gundam 00..
she sang quite well too
after the japan segment was a duo that sang a korean song
then what follows after that was a short interval
which i then saw faezah, syafiqah and vani seating together
immediately i went over to them
i also met with amalina
i think if there is ever an outing or an event where the two of us might meet
i think somehow we will find each other so that we can say hi!
nice to see her there
she seems to be doing fine and well in poly
and outside mi
looking at amalina, utha and faezah
makes me think that whether or not you succeed there academically,
MI is a place where you will certainly make friends
that's definitely one good thing about MI
one of the few good things
when the auditorium became dark again,
another duo came on stage and sang the wondergirls' Nobody
the two girls are twins and are accompanied by three dancers
so it looks as if the wondergirls are complete
after that comes the singapore part
there was a classical guitar player
and a nine-year girl who was half our age but
has double our talent
then came the highlight of my visit to singapore poly,
13 is a crowd!
before performing,
they are kinda of special
and maybe as to emphasize on their status as the "highlights of the show"
they had this short video of them played on a screen
pretty cool
to me, it has utha written all over it
13 played three songs
Sober, Someone You're Not, and Don't Go
I liked Sober and Someone You're Not
but i prefer Mila singing songs that are fast paced like sober (the song, not drunk, haha)
i think she sings better fast then to sing slowly
because i like fast songs, i think
that's what i think
i'm not simon cowell
Somehow, the three girls i'm seating next too are all crazy over rais
rais the bassist, well he has changed a lot since secondary school
now he's hot, last time in school, in everyone's eyes,
he was a average looking guy who is a genius and did well in everything
well now he's hot
vani, who i sat next to was chanting:
"Ahh Rais! Rais!"
Seelan who played the keyboards
got a lot more active and even jumped from the bass drum
screaming to the mike "Let's GO!!" or something like that
he was cool and nice voice too, as always
sufi is not like rais,
because he doesnt seem to have changed much
other than the hairstyle
it seems that i still recognise the guitarist in him and his stage antics
the sufi i know hahaha
Utha the great drummer
i think he drummed better than the drummer from Rusted Figures
really liked the way he banged the drums in the beginning of the song, sober
off drums he was also great when he switched with rais for bass for the song Don't Go
and he certainly was a crowd pleaser when holding the mike
could even come out with the joke
"Come on, I'm sure your moms buy you lots of handphones"
then they had a finale and an encore dedicated to Michael Jackson
it was a great night
i think it was 13isacrowd's best show yet
really enjoyed everyone of the performances there
after the show went back home with syaz and wani
ate at mcdonald's west mall
talking about school stuff
stuff i have been missing out in school and in 08a3 where i come from
some secrets here and there
scandals in school
hopes and dreams in school
liked the sharing session
never did thought that sharing could be so healing
then walked the two lovely ladies home
then i took bus 157
and walked home from boonlay mrt
the end
they all said it was an easy paper.
well that's not what my answer script will say
furthermore i forgot to bring my calculator
so bye bye 3 marks
heck
goodbye section A
i might as well say goodbye year 3
or better yet
good bye MI
haha
maybe not..
i joked with huishi just now
after the paper
beginning with
"i might not see you again next year"
then as we were walking to the mrt,
i told hui shi and carina
that i'm going to singapore poly
huishi asked for what
then i said to "to apply for a course there"
she suddenly was shocked
and asks i'm leaving
and gave me a worried look
continuously asked me if this was a joke...
of course it was a joke laa
but it was no joke that i'm going to singapore poly
well only for one night
and it was one good night
a sure good way to end the day after going through a lousy paper
i went there to support mila and her band, 13 is a crowd
but that wasnt the only reason why i came
well mila convinced me to come
saying that they are not the only ones performing
there we be performances from different countries
13 will be representing singapore
then she told me that a band there will be performing songs from x japan
immediately i was super interested
so after the paper i rushed to SP
and i arrived late (half hour late) but still i managed to catch the first performance
it was a band called rusty figures
when they came in they were playing a x japan song called "weekend"
already i love their band
as well as x japan
the lead singer was a girl named ruby
she sang the song well
even had the japanese accent to her voice while singing
and she was hot too
she wore these i think black rubber tights
that shined in the spotlight
nasty! (in a good way)
as for x japan,
i was only introduced to this band from my friend in pae last year
his name is weirong and he's a damn big fan of x japan
he even told me of his ambitions to have the same funky hairstyle
i never really look deep into the band back then
but after the band "rusty figures" played two x japan songs
i knew i have to start doing so
cause i just love the style of music that x japan plays
weirong,
now i know why you love x japan so much
and to think i've only seen a cover of the song..
wow..
after the band was an indian girl who sang a familiar japanese song
well it was familiar since the song was used as the third ending song
for Gundam 00..
she sang quite well too
after the japan segment was a duo that sang a korean song
then what follows after that was a short interval
which i then saw faezah, syafiqah and vani seating together
immediately i went over to them
i also met with amalina
i think if there is ever an outing or an event where the two of us might meet
i think somehow we will find each other so that we can say hi!
nice to see her there
she seems to be doing fine and well in poly
and outside mi
looking at amalina, utha and faezah
makes me think that whether or not you succeed there academically,
MI is a place where you will certainly make friends
that's definitely one good thing about MI
one of the few good things
when the auditorium became dark again,
another duo came on stage and sang the wondergirls' Nobody
the two girls are twins and are accompanied by three dancers
so it looks as if the wondergirls are complete
after that comes the singapore part
there was a classical guitar player
and a nine-year girl who was half our age but
has double our talent
then came the highlight of my visit to singapore poly,
13 is a crowd!
before performing,
they are kinda of special
and maybe as to emphasize on their status as the "highlights of the show"
they had this short video of them played on a screen
pretty cool
to me, it has utha written all over it
13 played three songs
Sober, Someone You're Not, and Don't Go
I liked Sober and Someone You're Not
but i prefer Mila singing songs that are fast paced like sober (the song, not drunk, haha)
i think she sings better fast then to sing slowly
because i like fast songs, i think
that's what i think
i'm not simon cowell
Somehow, the three girls i'm seating next too are all crazy over rais
rais the bassist, well he has changed a lot since secondary school
now he's hot, last time in school, in everyone's eyes,
he was a average looking guy who is a genius and did well in everything
well now he's hot
vani, who i sat next to was chanting:
"Ahh Rais! Rais!"
Seelan who played the keyboards
got a lot more active and even jumped from the bass drum
screaming to the mike "Let's GO!!" or something like that
he was cool and nice voice too, as always
sufi is not like rais,
because he doesnt seem to have changed much
other than the hairstyle
it seems that i still recognise the guitarist in him and his stage antics
the sufi i know hahaha
Utha the great drummer
i think he drummed better than the drummer from Rusted Figures
really liked the way he banged the drums in the beginning of the song, sober
off drums he was also great when he switched with rais for bass for the song Don't Go
and he certainly was a crowd pleaser when holding the mike
could even come out with the joke
"Come on, I'm sure your moms buy you lots of handphones"
then they had a finale and an encore dedicated to Michael Jackson
it was a great night
i think it was 13isacrowd's best show yet
really enjoyed everyone of the performances there
after the show went back home with syaz and wani
ate at mcdonald's west mall
talking about school stuff
stuff i have been missing out in school and in 08a3 where i come from
some secrets here and there
scandals in school
hopes and dreams in school
liked the sharing session
never did thought that sharing could be so healing
then walked the two lovely ladies home
then i took bus 157
and walked home from boonlay mrt
the end
Thursday, July 2, 2009
right time to die?
bio was good..
but i dont think i'll get full marks
although i think it might be close to full marks
going to mila's thirteen is a crowd band thingy tomorrow
right after management paper
expecting a good show
long time since i last heard mila sing
asian youth games are on the way
singapore hasnt won any gold
but two silvers or more i think
some of the girl athletes there are quite hot
what the hell most of them are around my age
there's this girl from uzbekistan, i think
got bronze in the high jump
wearing sports lingerie
a tall fair skinned brunette with light brown hair
damn hot
and speaking of sports,
my body is so weak now
after many months of no training
i sometimes feel that i'm so weak i'm dying
maybe its true
i seem to be feeling painful constrictions around my chest area
everynow and then
i think something is wrong is my heart
also feel a bit of breathlessness sometimes
and i'm also getting headaches frequently these days
must be beacuse i havent done any serious exercise
because i wasnt like this when i was in ncc or in track last year
so i know my own remedy
its just a question of when i'm really going to start exercising again
i think i'm weird
i got a bed
a nice comfortable bed
yet every night
i sleep on the floor
why? because my bed is filled
filled with my books and notes that i use to study
but i dont think i'll get full marks
although i think it might be close to full marks
going to mila's thirteen is a crowd band thingy tomorrow
right after management paper
expecting a good show
long time since i last heard mila sing
asian youth games are on the way
singapore hasnt won any gold
but two silvers or more i think
some of the girl athletes there are quite hot
what the hell most of them are around my age
there's this girl from uzbekistan, i think
got bronze in the high jump
wearing sports lingerie
a tall fair skinned brunette with light brown hair
damn hot
and speaking of sports,
my body is so weak now
after many months of no training
i sometimes feel that i'm so weak i'm dying
maybe its true
i seem to be feeling painful constrictions around my chest area
everynow and then
i think something is wrong is my heart
also feel a bit of breathlessness sometimes
and i'm also getting headaches frequently these days
must be beacuse i havent done any serious exercise
because i wasnt like this when i was in ncc or in track last year
so i know my own remedy
its just a question of when i'm really going to start exercising again
i think i'm weird
i got a bed
a nice comfortable bed
yet every night
i sleep on the floor
why? because my bed is filled
filled with my books and notes that i use to study
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Fuck the Presidency!
me, not the one who controls our financial reserves
well, as always, life sucks
haha
NO CHANGE THERE!
hahahaha
i'm gonna ramble about how sucky life is being the president, how regretful it might be signing my name as a student leader, or how ashamed i am to put MI as one of my choices..
oh well that shit is all over..
time to start up new shit
exams period right on, ongoing
just had history paper in the morning, international history
like how life is,
the paper sucks as much
not just the question but the answers that i provide
but if the test taught me one thing
is not that i should study religiously
but that i love source based questions
i always forget to notice how dumb and pathetic i am at essays
and god, there are 3 fucking essays that i must fill for this paper
why did i use the f word?
so if god willing, i will get 20 and above for my source based
and that will allow me to feel a false sense of tiny bit of satisfaction
which is good enough for me
before history was lit
before lit was management
and today's wednesday
one test a day keeps my head awake
lit was ok
arfah's lit
otherwise known as paper 1 lit
shoulder's aching, not because of ms arfah,
but because i've been typing
and typing
and this sucks
it was ok i could write without any sleepy eyes
and i could write and get the ink to flow
somehow i think i put a much better effort in lit than history
shame on me
what have i done
no,
what have i not done?
alot
and i'm missing out
and i'm paying the full price for it
management,
well management was manageable
and like literature, ink flowed freely as the waters of the river nile
i told a friend about my management paper:
can fail, can pass, but cannot score
so i kinda know where i kinda stand
oh, and i also realised that i got this freaky habit of
counting the amount of marks that i will most likely get
everytime i stop writing and reach the writers' block
and i am very honest to myself everytime
telling myself that this shitty answer might be able to get a mark or two
while a not so shitty answer will probably be missing out on a few marks from full
another thing is that i also
find myself unable to convince myself
i never did and so far never
have been able to convince myself that my answer is worthy of the full marks
believe me,
even for biology
speaking of biology,
i'm having my bio paper 1 paper tomorrow
paper 1 is the mcq or multiple-choice questions
supposed to continue studying but
cannot resist the urge to write this blog, so there...
haha
well, i've compiled all the bio stuff into files for easy reference
which i think is good cause i am gonna take A level for bio this year
one green plastic file for the tutorials and tests
from the time i was a proud and happy 08a3ian
to the recent one about genetics
as for the many bio notes
i put most of them in a green ring file
the green file is not enough and so damn thick
that i have to leave out three topics from my green ring file
as i searched for a file to put three of the topics in biology
i suddenly remembered the special red file
alright! finally something that i can use the file for
a red ring file that is about a third filled up with notes
before i filed in my own notes
i opened it and saw all the notes that the previous owner gave me
as well the personal ones that i have been keeping in the file
such as post-its and farewell-but-remember-i-love-you notes
yes the file is from my dearly missed catharina
it was her bio file. i never looked through notes seriously
before i used it, i kept the file as a sentimental thingy
so the last time i touched it was last year
dont worry cat, it's not that dusty! and i still keep our stuff.
so just as i was looking at one of the farewell notes i came to this line:
"good luck with that A4 girl" haha.. scandulous? cheating? i think not.. haha
as for luck,
it seems that i'm so out of luck
for this year i guess.. hmm,
cat, to be honest i have made zero progress over this
and i think that its a major discouragement in my present lousy life
haha.. maybe its the reason why people always ask why i'm always sad or sian..
but in history we learn that one factor doesnt always cause everything
and this is so very true too
i have many other problems
many problems in life equals to a very problematic lousy life...
am i still trying to find an alternative to the smile that lights up my day?
i dunnoe..
cat's pretty face and the girl's lovely smile is still engraved to my skull..
and i still think that i'm very much pathetic with this girl
despite derek pushing me on
oh well
gotta make it though this prelim 1!
as well as the upcoming NE events
of Racial harmony and National Day
oh, and i might have to dance in front of the school
for racial harmony to the tune of pussycat doll's jai ho
again this proves my point that life sucks
but i guess life sucks as much as how sucky i want it to be
fasting month coming up soon
gotta to stop thinking of this shit
seize the day!
well, as always, life sucks
haha
NO CHANGE THERE!
hahahaha
i'm gonna ramble about how sucky life is being the president, how regretful it might be signing my name as a student leader, or how ashamed i am to put MI as one of my choices..
oh well that shit is all over..
time to start up new shit
exams period right on, ongoing
just had history paper in the morning, international history
like how life is,
the paper sucks as much
not just the question but the answers that i provide
but if the test taught me one thing
is not that i should study religiously
but that i love source based questions
i always forget to notice how dumb and pathetic i am at essays
and god, there are 3 fucking essays that i must fill for this paper
why did i use the f word?
so if god willing, i will get 20 and above for my source based
and that will allow me to feel a false sense of tiny bit of satisfaction
which is good enough for me
before history was lit
before lit was management
and today's wednesday
one test a day keeps my head awake
lit was ok
arfah's lit
otherwise known as paper 1 lit
shoulder's aching, not because of ms arfah,
but because i've been typing
and typing
and this sucks
it was ok i could write without any sleepy eyes
and i could write and get the ink to flow
somehow i think i put a much better effort in lit than history
shame on me
what have i done
no,
what have i not done?
alot
and i'm missing out
and i'm paying the full price for it
management,
well management was manageable
and like literature, ink flowed freely as the waters of the river nile
i told a friend about my management paper:
can fail, can pass, but cannot score
so i kinda know where i kinda stand
oh, and i also realised that i got this freaky habit of
counting the amount of marks that i will most likely get
everytime i stop writing and reach the writers' block
and i am very honest to myself everytime
telling myself that this shitty answer might be able to get a mark or two
while a not so shitty answer will probably be missing out on a few marks from full
another thing is that i also
find myself unable to convince myself
i never did and so far never
have been able to convince myself that my answer is worthy of the full marks
believe me,
even for biology
speaking of biology,
i'm having my bio paper 1 paper tomorrow
paper 1 is the mcq or multiple-choice questions
supposed to continue studying but
cannot resist the urge to write this blog, so there...
haha
well, i've compiled all the bio stuff into files for easy reference
which i think is good cause i am gonna take A level for bio this year
one green plastic file for the tutorials and tests
from the time i was a proud and happy 08a3ian
to the recent one about genetics
as for the many bio notes
i put most of them in a green ring file
the green file is not enough and so damn thick
that i have to leave out three topics from my green ring file
as i searched for a file to put three of the topics in biology
i suddenly remembered the special red file
alright! finally something that i can use the file for
a red ring file that is about a third filled up with notes
before i filed in my own notes
i opened it and saw all the notes that the previous owner gave me
as well the personal ones that i have been keeping in the file
such as post-its and farewell-but-remember-i-love-you notes
yes the file is from my dearly missed catharina
it was her bio file. i never looked through notes seriously
before i used it, i kept the file as a sentimental thingy
so the last time i touched it was last year
dont worry cat, it's not that dusty! and i still keep our stuff.
so just as i was looking at one of the farewell notes i came to this line:
"good luck with that A4 girl" haha.. scandulous? cheating? i think not.. haha
as for luck,
it seems that i'm so out of luck
for this year i guess.. hmm,
cat, to be honest i have made zero progress over this
and i think that its a major discouragement in my present lousy life
haha.. maybe its the reason why people always ask why i'm always sad or sian..
but in history we learn that one factor doesnt always cause everything
and this is so very true too
i have many other problems
many problems in life equals to a very problematic lousy life...
am i still trying to find an alternative to the smile that lights up my day?
i dunnoe..
cat's pretty face and the girl's lovely smile is still engraved to my skull..
and i still think that i'm very much pathetic with this girl
despite derek pushing me on
oh well
gotta make it though this prelim 1!
as well as the upcoming NE events
of Racial harmony and National Day
oh, and i might have to dance in front of the school
for racial harmony to the tune of pussycat doll's jai ho
again this proves my point that life sucks
but i guess life sucks as much as how sucky i want it to be
fasting month coming up soon
gotta to stop thinking of this shit
seize the day!
Friday, April 24, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
blood
hey cat! remember that day you donated blood?
haha
i just did so too
however
i just got better after feeling sick on the day i donated blood
so they'll probably reject my blood packet
i may be unhealthy to donate blood
but i'm healthy enough to fool the doctor that i'm healthy enough to donate blood..
haha
ok that was wrong
how i wish they could send my blood back to me
training is so tiring now that i'm a few hundred mililitres short of blood
take my blood back and inject it back into my bloodstream
haha
i'll have to rob the blood bank to do that
but at least i didnt faint
well i want to now
but there are people out there who just wont let me
so i'll just let my body destroy itself
doing all the school stuff
somehow derek wants me to take a day off
hell no i tell him
i'll try to get perfect attendance again
but if i die trying to do so, is it justified?
hahaha
at least derek is talking sense
no,
at least i'm hearing sense that coming out of derek
a breakthrough
haha
i just did so too
however
i just got better after feeling sick on the day i donated blood
so they'll probably reject my blood packet
i may be unhealthy to donate blood
but i'm healthy enough to fool the doctor that i'm healthy enough to donate blood..
haha
ok that was wrong
how i wish they could send my blood back to me
training is so tiring now that i'm a few hundred mililitres short of blood
take my blood back and inject it back into my bloodstream
haha
i'll have to rob the blood bank to do that
but at least i didnt faint
well i want to now
but there are people out there who just wont let me
so i'll just let my body destroy itself
doing all the school stuff
somehow derek wants me to take a day off
hell no i tell him
i'll try to get perfect attendance again
but if i die trying to do so, is it justified?
hahaha
at least derek is talking sense
no,
at least i'm hearing sense that coming out of derek
a breakthrough
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
investiture
elections is over
for all councils
brian is the president for sports council
haha i voted for him
carina is the president foe student council
didnt vote for her
but now i get the feeling that i should have votd for her
investiture is so hectic
the rehearsals
actual day is on 15 april
oddly enough
i also have my 1500m race on 15 april
which is good
because i get to skip school in the morning
then come back to school
and do the investiture stuff
looking forward to the race and to the investiture
except for the fact that i have to write yet another speech
for investiture
if only i was paid for making speeches..
the american presidents after truman
are paid for making speeches
and its no small sum of money
about at least a few 100 thousand for a speech
at least they have incentives to write and give speeches
i dont
i only have my teachers whoo constantly hunt down for me
in order to get the speech
and ms annie koh is getting married
i think its on the 15 april as well
or is it on this week?
cant remember..
oh well congrats
for all councils
brian is the president for sports council
haha i voted for him
carina is the president foe student council
didnt vote for her
but now i get the feeling that i should have votd for her
investiture is so hectic
the rehearsals
actual day is on 15 april
oddly enough
i also have my 1500m race on 15 april
which is good
because i get to skip school in the morning
then come back to school
and do the investiture stuff
looking forward to the race and to the investiture
except for the fact that i have to write yet another speech
for investiture
if only i was paid for making speeches..
the american presidents after truman
are paid for making speeches
and its no small sum of money
about at least a few 100 thousand for a speech
at least they have incentives to write and give speeches
i dont
i only have my teachers whoo constantly hunt down for me
in order to get the speech
and ms annie koh is getting married
i think its on the 15 april as well
or is it on this week?
cant remember..
oh well congrats
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